I miss my friends. Luckily, I got to see my family yesterday. I love being an Aunt. I wish I was more useful for them, but I am happy to get a chance to hang out with them. I hope I get to see them soon again. We played a home rule to the card game Apples to Apples Jr. We had it that whoever gets the greencard gets to be the next judge. We did not kept points. So everyone won! Or everyone is at a draw.

Anyway, I still get dizzy and forgetful. However, I am alive and have a very loving spouse.  

Guess what?

I love Taelle. I love my husband. I love my friends. I love my family.

 Good luck to us all.

 

I am lucky to have my family. I am so lucky to know that if I died or got in a coma my family would help my love if he needs the help. However, I still feel bad, for my love. I want him to feel safe, loved, and feel good about himself. Thank you for reading this. Anyway, I asked to become an immortal that has unlimited good health, unlimited good wealth, and a home that would last forever no matter what happen. This is very unrealistic request that I have been asked to do. Before, anyone says anything else, it was not my love that asked. It was not my family. It was not my friends. It was asked by someone who is a Mormon. Anyway, I am currently thinking about making a fund that is called, "In case I died or get into a coma funds". That is something that is doable and maybe it would give me some dreams instead of nightmares. Good luck to us all. P.S. I swear there are only a tiny bit of good Mormons that are helpful and the huge rest are Mormons who cause more damage than help.

My tarot reading told me that this weekend is a great weekend to see my best friend Taelle. However, the cards told me that I need to clearly say how I feel. I need to stay clam, yet cry if I need it. I was told to stop fearing and follow your heart. My heart tells me that love is everywhere. I know people will understand that I am looking for love. The cards said that one person will misunderstand, but everyone else will understand or at least be on my side of love. In addition, the reading said that my thoughts do affect people even if I don’t say them. Anyway, I am going to hope that the tarot cards are correct this time. I really want to see Taelle. I don’t want to stress her out. I just want to hug her. In addition, I also want to hug my other best friend Dethy. Thank you for reading this. P.S. I actually did three readings or more. It was odd doing them, but I am thankful that my friend Taelle taught me tarot.

I miss my friends. I do still have love for them. My future husband is still there for me. But as I learn not a single person can replace someone that you hold dear. Well, I have gone insane. I keep hoping my friends will come back. I keep hoping to see my friends that I know I will not see them at least this month. I have a friend that I might not ever see again. The last time I saw her was in Jr. high school. Besides, she and I never really got to know each other that well. I have another friends that might stay out of state. Mainly because she has a job, and a new family there. Besides, I really don't know how to get to her to know that I really do care for her. My current best friends that is not my future husband has things they need to deal with first. Which honestly could take years. So I don't plan on seeing them anytime this year. I do have a male friend that I don't want to lose because she made my life happy. This friend is my first friend. I am still friends with him. Even though I rarely see him. I hope I see him too. I love them all. Anyway, I am posting this because my dream I had should have been a dream not a sad nightmare. However, I still have hope in the far far future that I would see my friends again, but I planned on not seeing them. Good luck everyone!